I don’t really know how I feel these days. Mostly, I feel disbelief that any of this happened – that I finally got pregnant just to miscarry shortly after. Sometimes I feel distaste for regular activities – work, cooking, washing dishes, doing laundry. All of it feels invasive and pointless and painful. Sometimes I see … More Disbelief, Or How I Feel Now.
Within the space of a week, we found out we were pregnant and then miscarried. Numbness, disbelief, and a profound sense of injustice swirl amid sadness, loss, and anger. As the shock wears off, the emotions hit stronger. It was like getting slapped in the face or punched in the gut – having a rug … More Beginning Again.