I had been doing better. I think the stress of change – school starting with its new responsibilities and deadlines – has diminished my resiliency somewhat, added to which a persistent fear of academic and personal failure has dogged me since I first found myself unable to continue with full-time classes a few years back. It has … More A kind of relapse.
I’m impatient. Vaguely discontent and inexplicably sad, Boxing Day finds me struggling to stay hopeful. It’s a delicate balance, being hopeful and being content, optimism about the future and rootedness in present reality. I find myself plagued by a sense of my own inability to control outcomes; I am seemingly at the mercy of external … More Boxing Day Blues: Patience, Hope, and Contentment.